but I am going to post it anyways. I was already quite homesick for Costa Rica. I have been for a long time. Things lately have made this desire in my heart grow. Fleshly things, like failed friendships, anger and frustration. I guess I should be thankful for that. Finally I know that this homesickness is not only in my spiritual walk, it is in my flesh. Which I think is good. I think that for the best, it is nice to have it in both places, so I am not torn between the two. I want to go back to Costa Rica more than anything. I can't describe to you the depth of that longing. It's tortorous sometimes. I don't know what to do. I have at least five years here and another six months or so in training before I can go be a full time missionary. Sometimes, I don't think I will make it. I am taking a class this summer, and 3 AP's next year, so that maybe I can graduate college in 3 years. That will make it a little easier to bear. I dont' know why I am telling you this. I suppose it is because I wanted to tell someone, but it is harder to say in person. People ask me if I am happy here, and I am really. It's just that I want so badly to be where I feel God is calling me. I know that is Costa Rica. I am begin to ramble, and I don't think you really care about all this. Ciao,
sara
1 comment:
This isn't selfish at all! I feel exactly this way about Nicaragua. Although I have only been there 5 times and my longest visit was for 20 days, I feel more at home at the orphanage in Nicaragua than I do anywhere else in the world. When you really know God is calling you to be somewhere, you do long with all your being to be there, even though you can't really explain to others what thay feels like. I want to be in Nicaragua so badly it physically hurts sometime. I even feel physically healthier in Nicaragua. I have back problems and here in the States I sometimes need my pain meds for my back 4 times a day. When I was just in Nicaragua for 20 days, I only needed my pain meds a total of two times. Not two times a day, two times total out of 20 days. I'll say a prayer for you that God will bring you back to Costa Rica soon. :)
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