I want to post on something meaningful,

but so few things in my life are very meaningful to others.

there is a certain person that I know. This person we will call, Bobby-Sue, (hah! so you don't know if it is a girl or boy!). Bobby-Sue and I have known each other a long time. We have had issues, but then, we all have issues with each other now and again.

Anyway. I think I have just come to realize that Bobby-Sue can not stand me. This is an incredible thing for me. I know, I am not always easy to deal with, because I am high spirited, and stubborn. But this is still such an amazing thought. This person hates me so much, they really can't stand to be in the same room as me for one moment.

But at the same time, they always act to my face as though we are friends. This is inconcievable!

I think this is the problem with Christianity today. We have become a very closed, two faced culture. As Christians. I mean, we go to church, put on the Jesus loves me face, but when we leave, we are not so sure of things. If we were sure, and we were completely committed, I don't think we would have so many issues in the church. We would love each other, becasue we would want to follow God's will so badly.

So I guess, I am saying that because of our half decision to follow Christ, we are very secreted and stupid in our faith. We are double sided. We can't be completely on fire for Christ--because we are afraid to give ourselves totally over to him.

I think that maybe Bobby-Sue and I struggle with this. I have only recently, handed my life back over to Christ (in totatlity.) Maybe Bobby-Sue hasn't. Because if he/she had, I think that Bobby Sue and I would get along. I mean, we don't fight. But we don't love each other. I try to love them, but it is difficult. I think that perhaps Bobby-Sue represents the great tragedy of the church today. We have forgotten what it is to be completely in the hands of God. And so we can not love each other as we should. Instead, we tell one another that we enjoy them to their face, when in reality, we can not stand the sight of them.

Does that make sense to anyone?


Dong iwoti,
Sara