the parking lot has quickly emptied

as everyone leaves for a long weekend.

I was looking at old friends on face book and was glancing at Matt's profile. Is this strange? it made me miss home and everyone at Mission Hills. I think I will go back there during Christmas, something in me just pulls to go. What will people think? What will they say?

I am really sad about all the relationships I am realizing I miss out on in high school. Matt and I could have been friends, but I was too shy, and I never talked to him. I know it seems strange to call myself shy, ut I was. I wanted to know Matt, I wanted to know a lot of people, but I couldn't. I couldn't seem to find my voice whenever I saw him, I couldn't find anything to talk about. so I missed out on what could have been a great friendship.

Maybe it is the sun breaking through the clouds, maybe the leaves wafting to the ground in the slight breeze. Maybe it is the empty lot, and that Alicia, Hannah, Natalie, Nick, Amanda, Kellie, everyone seems to be leaving. Maybe it is the lack of sleep and the procrastination towards my speech tonight.

Whatever it is, I am feeling very sad, and very nostalgic.