I think I am going to shut this thing down. I know of definitely three people that read this. Okay maybe a few others. Nathan, Connor on occasion, and same for Ryan, Chase, Laura says she has read some of the stories. Or at least one. And I think sometimes Melissa might read it. So that is 1...2... 6. Six people read this blog. And no one comments. So really I am jabbering for nothing. And you know, I have been looking at other people's sites and the ones that I feel are really deep and worthwhile reading you know...I am not linked to any of them. Which is fine, I am not asking to be linked, I just figure I am not linked to any so called deep sites, erego my blog is not really that deep. And what is worth writing about if it doesn't make poeple think? You know? Well maybe you don't. I thought you know, that I had some deep thoughts. I still think I do. But I get them out here and they just become mouth diarreah.
So I may finish the thing on Muslim night. And then I am going away. Well, the blog is. Because really, there is not a whole lot of reason to keep it up here.
About Me
- Sara without an H
- In my Father's house are many dwelling places, if it were not so, I would have told you; for I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and recieve you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also.
9 comments:
Hold it. Comments are not the be all, end all of our existence on this planet. And how do you know that some random internet person isn't going to come across this and be totally amazed by something you wrote on here? You have no idea how many people you're affecting or will affect by having something like this on the internet. So don't think that there's no point to having it up, or that there's no worth to your writing because people haven't commented as much as you hoped they would.
But, well... to be honest, what I get from this post is that you've only been doing this for attention in the first place. Am I wrong? I hope I am. I probably am, actually. But I mean, there's nothing wrong with wanting to be recognized for things and there's nothing wrong with wanting comments on things but if that's the only motivation... well. I'm just confused, I guess, because I didn't think that not commenting on your posts automatically meant I either didn't read it or was shallow. I read your blog - all the time. I also have you linked on mine, which obviously isn't important because my blog isn't deep and is mostly just for my entertainment, but still. People aren't always going to comment. People aren't always going to give you feedback, positive or otherwise. But you're going to let that stop you when that isn't really the point of it in the first place? Isn't the point of it all to make a difference in someone's life? To maybe, just for a minute make someone see something differently? That's what the direction you're taking this blog should be about, not about whether or not people are reading it and if you're getting comments or not.
And if you really want other people to start reading yours, go to a blog directory site and register. That way you'll pop up in search engines and stuff.
I'm not going to stop you if you really want to shut down your blog. But... well, I don't know. I just think that if you're going to shut it down it won't be because of what I interpret as a perceived lack of attention. Because it shouldn't be about that.
(Wow, that was way longer than I thought it would be. And I hope I didn't come across as antagonistic because I'm really not trying to be - honest.)
It's not from like, a lack of attention so to speak. Because that isn't why I started the blog in the first place. I just feel like, well I don't know. I guess I get tired of looking at everyone else's blogs and seeing a million comments on everything (I know that's an exaggeration). And everyone comments stuff like, oh that made me really think about bla bla bla. I mean, most of the comments I get are from Nathan who is always telling me what I should be doing or what I should fix, and of course from Ryan, who sometimes tells me what is wrong with my thinking and why. Which is fine and all, but sometimes, I would like to know that my blog actually means something to someone besides Chase who I don't even know, but he always says that it does. I mean really, what is the point of this thing, if I'm just rambling on about nothing and no one even cares? I mean, someone might stumble across my blog and go, wow people actually believe in God. You know, like the person who said that on Nathan's. but obviously, my blog isn't deep enough to get that kind of response considering that nobody shuts up about Nathan and his incredibly amazing blog, but hardly anyone knows I have one.
And then, Connor never complains that I'm not posting enough. Maybe that's cause I never give him cause to, but seriously. Yours might only be for entertainment but at least it is apparent that people actually read and enjoy it. and you're going to tell me that you enjoy reading it, I know you will. And I love you Sarah, but I just feel like nobody else does. I didn't open this thing up for my own amusement. I did it to show people another view of the world I guess. Or something like that. I didn't do it to be political, or really even to be religious. I just wanted to touch people I guess. Through the internet. Doesn't that sound ridiculous? But I think that's kind of what I wanted to do.
And really, I am discovering that I am so not deep, or at least not in a way that I can tangibly express on here. And people recognize that I guess. I'm just realizing it a long time after everyone already did, I think. I just feel like, I have nothing really to offer the 'blogging world.' Or whatever you want to call it.
I'm not very creative. Or at least not in a way people usually appreciate. I'm not very clever, and I don't have many pictures, or good quotes from school because frankly, AP kids aren't usually that funny. Or they are, but you just have to know the poeple like I do, or have been there. So basically, I have nothing to post about, I feel like that anyway. Everything comes out as dry and bland I think. And the things that do matter to me, don't matter to anyone else. Nobody cares about Islam. In fact, most of that feedback has been negative, against me. Don't be legalistic, this doesn't matter. Bla bla bla. Because nobody gets it. No one cares.
I don't know. I guess that this is just a really long way of saying that I'm not closing down because of comments, but rather because I feel that this blog has little to no impact on anyone and therefor serves no purpose.
and no, you weren't antagonistic. and thanks.
Mine is going to be short. Because I have more of Gerlich's massive assignments to read.
But if it goes to show at all, I probably read your blog more than anyone else. I read EVERYONES blog at least 3 and ususally 4 times a day. And yeah, you always post, you I don't ever need to complain about it.
While I don't comment, it doesn't mean that I don't enjoy it. I think it is very insightful to what you believe and who you are as a person, and it is helpful for me (as a pitifully uncomprehending male) to understand you more.
So BAM. That's what I say. I would have to delete you from my 'Homies' list. And that would be way too hard to do. And I am too lazy. So don't stop.
Maybe you've missed it--the whole reason why you don't get a lot of comments is because you are deeper than the people who read it or at least your insights are more profound than a simple comment can really put into words...so we sit and think and wish we had something insightful to say in reply.
Here's a little story about how being on the internet really could touch someone you don't know. I've had a static homepage for over 5 years, and really no one looked at it much. My hit counter was low. And then Matt LeBlanc (from Friends) married a lady with the same name as me. In one weekend, I got like 15,000 hits on my site. And at least one person clicked on my link about Jesus. So, maybe that person was already a believer, or maybe not, but my little piece of the internet was there, just in case.
So, anyway, I hope you keep it. I like reading it. I enjoy when you throw in some Spanish to test my skills. I find your heart for lost people from other cultures refreshing.
hmm. here is my negative feedback that you love oh so much. haha.
i really hate following suit and making a huge comment, but whatever. im going to anyway.
you feel like your blog is pointless. that to me is irrelevant. thats one thing we have never seen eye to eye on sara. you dont have to impact people. you dont have to be deep. do something for the sake of doing it, not for the result it produces. if you really do want to have an alternative point of view, which was why you created a blog in the first place, stop measuring success by results. my life is a testament to the fact that a proccess of actions is as, if not more, important than the end result. i hope that makes sense; i wish i could explain it better.
and just in case you wanted to know sara, you are my sister in Christ. for that, I love you and i always will no matter what. even if you shut down your blog. haha.
Dearest Sara ~
I love your blog and read it regularly ... but I don't comment back. Why?
Cause ... in my mind, it's hard being me, being a PARENT for pete's sake, in this land of the new generation of new adults that are so AWESOME. Do you really want to hear what some old lady thinks? Do you really want a parent presence on this cool space? Would my squareness take away from your edginess?
I love what you share, who you are, and the exposure you give of your life to others. And for you, I think you process and grow a lot as you tap away what is melting together between your mind and your heart. You are deep. You are funny. You are REAL.
And you know what? Your posts bring me to prayer in special ways for you, for the pains AND the joys you experience. For your life today and for the woman you're growing into. For your days now and for your steps in the years to come.
I would miss your blog and posts a lot and would ask for you to reconsider :~)
With a big hug,
Momma F
Sara,
Today I started reading your blog. I've never really been involved in anything like this before so this whole blog format is new to me. But I just kept reading and reading. Going down and reading. I made it all the way down through your august posts before I decided to come back and leave a comment.
Sara, your friendship to me means more than you can ever know. You've come into my life in a time when I've needed you the most.
I'll comment more later, the bell just rang and I have to get to class but there's much more for me to say.
Rebecca S.
Sara, I am sorry I haven't responded sooner, but I, too, would be disappointed to see your blog disappear. It's nice to know there are other bloggers out there who share my fascination with Nicaragua and i really find your blog entries to be deep and thought-provoking. I really hope you will reconsider keeping it going.
Meg
meh you never know what could happen.
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