Or so, I told Austin Curry tonight at Logan's. (Nathan! I can not believe you did not drag Connor to Castle Pines! What is up with that?)
He asked if I had friends at school, and the automatic response came something like this: Lord, no.
I have slowly been realizing this summer that that is really the truth. I mean, okay, I have Nathan, I guess, if he isn't tired of my nagging from this summer. You could say that I have Connor, but you know, that relationship is unpredictable. Hannah, maybe, I mean, we haven't talked all summer. But you know, we hang during the year, so long as Laura isn't around.
Laura, (different one), I would say that Laura and I are friends. So why hasn't she called me all summer?
So, basically, I have just begun to realize, that all my relationships are at church. Which Austin, with a laugh, said can be a good thing and a bad thing. But actually it really sucks overall. I mean, who the heck am I going to homecoming with? Oh wait! I guess I won't. And prom? I told Cam to keep his night open (haha) but what group would I go with? I don't know anyone that I want to spend that night with. I am for sure not going with Connor and Nathan. (No offense, but Nathan, if you take, who I am thinking of, I don't know her. And Connor, you would step on my feet and I would fly off, and then ruin it for both of us.)
I don't know what to do. I am just realizing that this year could be really crummy. And I don't have friends. I have hung out with people from school.... ONCE THIS ENTIRE SUMMER! and it was after registration! So that hardly even counts! I have just spent so much time with the kids from church this summer, I don't know waht I am going to do only seeing them twice a week.
And to top it all off, I think I like someone who I don't really want to like. Yeah, tonight pretty much sucks.
About Me
- Sara without an H
- In my Father's house are many dwelling places, if it were not so, I would have told you; for I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and recieve you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also.
2 comments:
the reason i didnt drag connor anywhere was because i got grounded. i was home all day last night. so there. and you are my friend. i dont care if you feel like a nag, i dont think anyone could get on my nerves, even if they tried. i live with my sister. so nag away. i wont notice, i promise. and congrats on the math grade. we rock at life.
thanks Nathan. YAY for us!! A B!!! We rock!!! And thanks for saying I'm not a nag. I just kinda felt like that with the whole class thing this summer. (woo! A passing grade!) I'm really glad that we are friends, not just tutor/tutoree. Thanks.
Shaylee!! We have to have coffee tomorrow!!!!!! I would love to have some girl talk with you, it's great to know that someone else understands! I think my senior year will pick up after it gets started. I just realized that I had become dependent on the youthgroup kids more than I thought. Thanks again girl, I love you!
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