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Hey,
Sorry I've been a little out of sorts this week. I know it isn't fair because we don't talk often, and hardly see each other, I know it was selfish. I'm really sorry. Sorry for being a little jealous now and then. But then, you know me, huh.

Anyway. I just wanted you to know that your friendship means a lot to me. Over the past year or so, just having you in the back of my mind has been such an encouragement, I can not even begin to describe it to you. When I have a crappy day, all I really have to do is think of you, and just remind myself that you are my friend and you like me for who I am. I'm sorry I freaked out this fall and changed so much. I'm sorry I closed up like a clam and blasted people when they poked their dirty fingers around my edges.

I don't care about all the others around you all the time. Sometimes it's hard to talk. But you know, we just get going and no one can stop us. I know that nothing will ever happen. I know that you don't think of me in that way. I'm sorry I'm not better at hiding it. Popi says I wear my emotions on my sleeve. Either way. Life can be so impossible. But God has still blessed me incredibly, just with knowing you.

I told you about looking at schools in Costa Rica, God said no last night. He told me to wait. Sometimes it's hard. You know? I just want to be there and serve him. But he has me here, and he wants to prepare me to better fulfill his plan for my life. Patience is something that I lack. As if, you didn't already know that. I have to laugh when I say that. Because; of course you know that.

And this time, I will keep in touch. Promise.

Me.